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WHY BE LEFT WITH NO FAMILY AND NO FRIENDS

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I wish I was normal (vent)

Posted by littewolf49 - October 29th, 2023


Why do I feel so shitty? I don't understand I'm doing eveything right aren't I?


Why do I feel like this?

Why?

I thought autism was a good thing

I thought I was supposed to be happy being who I am

I don't feel happy

I feel sad

Why would I want to be myself when all I feel is pain?

I don't like it

I don't want this

I don't understand why am I like this?

Why can't anyone tell me what's wrong with me? Why does everyone have to shame me for being who I am?

Why are adults so cruel? I just wanna live my life

Why do I have to respect people who disrespect me? Why? Why is life like this? I don't like it

I don't like life

I don't want this

I don't like this at all

Why are parents so mean? Why do they yell at they're kids for asking to do things? Why? Why are they like this? Am I not trying hard enough for my mom? Am I not Good enough? I don't want this

I don't want this I don't want this I don't want this I don't want this

I just wanna be happy

That's all I want

Why is life so unfair? Why do I keep trying if all I'm going to get is pain and misery?

I don't know

Why am I asking so many questions?

I hate myself

I wish I was happier


Comments

There's this quote by kurt cobain, which I think sums up this side of life quite well: "Nobody dies a virgin. We're all fucked by life."

Sometimes I wish, for cases like these, we could take life to court and press charges the hell out of it - I really feel ya but life's something that is untameable no matter how much we'd like to have control over it

What you said about wanting to be normal really resonated with me. I hate it how in life everybody wants us to be one thing. We're individuals; we can't be confined. Being normal is where the problem lies, being forced to be something we're not

I know it's cliche, but work on what you can control; your mindset towards all these things. Start small with these things, whatever you make them to be. Notice how I said, "this side of life"? There's others :p

I don't know whether you made this post in the search for solutions, to vent, or to look for solace. Regardless, I'm here if ya wanna chat things out <3 I wish you the best fellow human being going through it

Thank you, that kinda helps I won't lie
Good to know I dunno
I'm not alone I guess? I don't fucking know but still thanks