My birthday was Jan 21st and it was awful

I've never liked my birthday and this has made it worse I just wanted to spend time with my family and friends but I couldn't I've been feeling really depressed lately and I've been thinking about what it'd be like if I wasn't ever born again

I hate this I hate this feeling

I've been so stressed and I had another meltdown at school and my mom had to deal with the school

I just want a break

15 is a huge age isn't it? I hate it

I hate being adult enough but not enough that I'm still a Kid I wish I was 12 again

I've been thinking of hurting myself lately

I don't want to I just have

I hate life

I don't wanna be this age anymore

Can I be 14 again? Can things go back to normal please?

I hate this

I hate this so much