7 days

I hope you know that you hurt me just as much as I hurt you leaving

You made me feel horrible

You made me feel like no matter how hard I tried I would never be good enough for you

I would never be good enough for myself

You threatened to hurt yourself whenever I said something you didn't like

Whenever we fought

"Why don't you just let me hurt myself, Jane?'

Fuck you I hope YOU DO hurt yourself

Do it you pussy

Don't just sit there and tell you your going to and actually do it

Hurt yourself the same way you hurt me

Feel the same pain you made me feel

You made me fear for your life every fucking day

You vented to me

Every

Fucking

Day

Yet when I vented you would fight with me

I was grieving? "Stop living in the past" I came to YOU because your sister lost a baby

I lost my kittens and I believed you'd understand

Why didn't you try to understand? Why did you guilt me? I was GRIEVING. I WAS FUCKING GRIEVING. You were a dick. I fucking hate you. I hate you and I hope you know that. I should have listened. I shouldn't have tried to "fix you" like I believed I fucking could.

Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you.

I'm glad I left you when I did. I'm glad I left you in the dust.

You guilted me with your autism

I have autism to you dick how could you? How could you use me for stupid sexual roleplays? You knew I didn't know any better

You knew I felt comfortable with you

You knew I trusted you so you used it to your advantage

I told you I didn't want to do some stupid needlemouse roleplay

I didn't feel comfortable doing a sexual roleplay anymore

I never did

I never did and I never will anymore

I wish I never met you

I wish you burn

I wish you know everytime you think of me I hope you burn

Fuck you tord

I fucking hate you I wish I never played among us with you I wish I never bothered talking to you

I wish I stayed to myself you hurt me more than you think

Fuck you fuck you fuck. You.

I wish I wasn't a fan of eddsworld

I wish I didn't talk to you about it

I wish we didn't have any of this roleplays

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Hey y'all! Sorry I haven't been posting art a whole lot lately just haven't had loads of motivation to. I've been busy with school work n stuff like that also so that's loads of fun/sar. I hope to post more art again soon but idk when that'll happen. Also just curious, if I started making jjba deep dive videos would you guys watch them?

I'm iffy with November

It's nothing special per say but it's still a alright month

But I sure as hell know this winter and fall are gonna be hell on earth for me

Well

That's a bad analogy but still

It's gonna be cold

I HATE the cold

But whatever at least I have an excuse to wear my hoodies all the time

Today was alright

I got a bit stressed out and a little bit upset but it all worked out In the bed

I hung out with my gf and my friends and I got to go trick or treating with them to it was alright

To conclude

No

Halloween isn't ruined for me

And I'm happy it isn't cuz it's something that I won't ever wanna lose I've lost enough

I fucking hate how much I love this holiday

It's fucking ridiculous

I make all these fucking plans and they all get thrown out the window

My plans with my best friend? Gone

A little party in celebration of the FNAF movie? Gone

Fucking spending time with my family? Gone

Fucking gone

I hate this holiday so much now

I hate everything I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it

Why do I feel so shitty? I don't understand I'm doing eveything right aren't I?

Why do I feel like this?

Why?

I thought autism was a good thing

I thought I was supposed to be happy being who I am

I don't feel happy

I feel sad

Why would I want to be myself when all I feel is pain?

I don't like it

I don't want this

I don't understand why am I like this?

Why can't anyone tell me what's wrong with me? Why does everyone have to shame me for being who I am?

Why are adults so cruel? I just wanna live my life

Why do I have to respect people who disrespect me? Why? Why is life like this? I don't like it

I don't like life

I don't want this

I don't like this at all

Why are parents so mean? Why do they yell at they're kids for asking to do things? Why? Why are they like this? Am I not trying hard enough for my mom? Am I not Good enough? I don't want this

I don't want this I don't want this I don't want this I don't want this

I just wanna be happy

That's all I want

Why is life so unfair? Why do I keep trying if all I'm going to get is pain and misery?

I don't know

Why am I asking so many questions?

I hate myself

I wish I was happier

I'm tired

Really tired

Emotionally tbh

I wish I could just

Turn my emotions off for a couple hours

Let myself recharge cuz Im just I dunno I'm tired of feeling them

Emotions get in the way sometimes and everyone shames me for feeling them

I shame myself for feeling them sometimes to

I dunno

Am I a mess? Is this normal? I don't think it's normal

I don't know

I dunno why I wanna know

I think I'm just sad today

I'm sad and tired

I wish I could feel better

Feel happy for a day

But I guess I have to feel other things

I wish I was a little kid again

I don't Wanna feel like this

I don't wanna care so much

Why do I care so much? Is this apart of growing up? I don't wanna grow up anymore I've never wanted to grow up

I just wanna take a break I wanna be a kid again everything's going to fast it feels like the last episode of part 6 where times going super fast I don't like it

Everything sucks I hate it hate school I just wanna take a break everyone keeps telling me I need to figure out my life and I need to be more happy but I don't feel happy

Why? Why do I feel this way? I don't have a reason to feel this way it doesn't make sense why do I feel like my mom doesn't love me? Why does she get upset with me all the time? Why don't I trust people anymore? I feel like a burden I don't like it I just wanna feel normal is that so hard to ask? I feel like I'm growing up to fast

I feel like I'm to mature for my age

I don't like it I don't wanna be mature I don't wanna know these things and feel this way I don't like it I don't like it all

I just want a break please that's all I want but if Course time still ticks on and I still age nonetheless

I don't like it

It's to much

To many sounds to many sights

I wanna break from seeing things and hearing things and feeling things and I just want a break from everything i feel...fake all the time I don't like it I don't like it at all and everyone just disregards what I say

God I need therapy

I don't like this anymore

I wanna quit school and just take a damn break it's to much anymore I'm sorry for typing this out and having you guys read it I'm sorry for everything I'm sorry for not posting a lot and worrying you guys