I fucking hate how much I love this holiday

It's fucking ridiculous

I make all these fucking plans and they all get thrown out the window

My plans with my best friend? Gone

A little party in celebration of the FNAF movie? Gone

Fucking spending time with my family? Gone

Fucking gone

I hate this holiday so much now

I hate everything I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it

Why do I feel so shitty? I don't understand I'm doing eveything right aren't I?

Why do I feel like this?

Why?

I thought autism was a good thing

I thought I was supposed to be happy being who I am

I don't feel happy

I feel sad

Why would I want to be myself when all I feel is pain?

I don't like it

I don't want this

I don't understand why am I like this?

Why can't anyone tell me what's wrong with me? Why does everyone have to shame me for being who I am?

Why are adults so cruel? I just wanna live my life

Why do I have to respect people who disrespect me? Why? Why is life like this? I don't like it

I don't like life

I don't want this

I don't like this at all

Why are parents so mean? Why do they yell at they're kids for asking to do things? Why? Why are they like this? Am I not trying hard enough for my mom? Am I not Good enough? I don't want this

I don't want this I don't want this I don't want this I don't want this

I just wanna be happy

That's all I want

Why is life so unfair? Why do I keep trying if all I'm going to get is pain and misery?

I don't know

Why am I asking so many questions?

I hate myself

I wish I was happier

I'm tired

Really tired

Emotionally tbh

I wish I could just

Turn my emotions off for a couple hours

Let myself recharge cuz Im just I dunno I'm tired of feeling them

Emotions get in the way sometimes and everyone shames me for feeling them

I shame myself for feeling them sometimes to

I dunno

Am I a mess? Is this normal? I don't think it's normal

I don't know

I dunno why I wanna know

I think I'm just sad today

I'm sad and tired

I wish I could feel better

Feel happy for a day

But I guess I have to feel other things

I wish I was a little kid again

I don't Wanna feel like this

I don't wanna care so much

Why do I care so much? Is this apart of growing up? I don't wanna grow up anymore I've never wanted to grow up

I just wanna take a break I wanna be a kid again everything's going to fast it feels like the last episode of part 6 where times going super fast I don't like it

Everything sucks I hate it hate school I just wanna take a break everyone keeps telling me I need to figure out my life and I need to be more happy but I don't feel happy

Why? Why do I feel this way? I don't have a reason to feel this way it doesn't make sense why do I feel like my mom doesn't love me? Why does she get upset with me all the time? Why don't I trust people anymore? I feel like a burden I don't like it I just wanna feel normal is that so hard to ask? I feel like I'm growing up to fast

I feel like I'm to mature for my age

I don't like it I don't wanna be mature I don't wanna know these things and feel this way I don't like it I don't like it all

I just want a break please that's all I want but if Course time still ticks on and I still age nonetheless

I don't like it

It's to much

To many sounds to many sights

I wanna break from seeing things and hearing things and feeling things and I just want a break from everything i feel...fake all the time I don't like it I don't like it at all and everyone just disregards what I say

God I need therapy

I don't like this anymore

I wanna quit school and just take a damn break it's to much anymore I'm sorry for typing this out and having you guys read it I'm sorry for everything I'm sorry for not posting a lot and worrying you guys

Har har har har

Har ha-r har

*Epic beat boxing*

I know it's a romance but whats up with all the kissing?? And why is Edward so fucking creepy?? PEOPLE FIND THIS MAN ATTRACTIVE? I like jacob more he makes the movies somewhat more bearable

Also that baby name is so weird bella you have horrible taste in names and guys JUST DATE ALICE FOR ONCE SHES SO MUCH BETTER AND CUTER GOD DAMN

But other than that they were ok movies the writing was..eh

6.2/10 not great not bad just eh

🌈🐌☁️

My baby boy

I wanna slam my head into a wall

How's your weekend going?

Mines gone to shit

WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST WATCHHHHHHHHH

WAHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

FUCKINF DJSJJSSNSJSJSNZNSNSNSN

at least anasui died frizt;

BURBSBSBSBSBZ

BUT JOLYNE

AND

FUCJING

JOTARO DIED???????? AND FUCKKNG ERMES???? also that dog lived

What the fuck that Chihuahua lived

How the fuck did that dog live

Araki

What

WHAHBSHSSBBSSBBDHDH

NOW EXCUSE ME WHILE I GO POUR MY WATER OUT AND NEVER LOOK AT RAINBOWS THE SAME AGAIN

Fuck this piece of shit fuck you

Fuck

You

RAHH

Fuck you anasui

Fuck you

Hell yeah baby ✨✨✨✨